November 7, 2018
My heart has been heavy this past week. A dear friend and colleague went from being an outwardly bright, vibrant, witty person to a shell of a person holding on for just a few more days. My friend passed away in her home surrounded by her family. In my grief, however, I am extremely grateful my head listened to my heart (God) as I made one last visit to see, hug and comfort my friend. I will always love her.
Our sermon, titled “Grateful Motives,” spoke to me on a very personal and emotional level. The focus of Pastor Dylan’s message was, “to have grateful motives means to empty yourself of your own plans and desired outcomes and in return, be filled with God’s will for your life.”
I am grateful I listened to my heart and made a final visit to see my friend. While some of the motive might have been selfish, I truly did wake up that morning, my heart heavy to see my friend for what I knew would be the last time on earth. God knew my heart. I was not given any special words to say; instead I held her hand, lightly squeezed my love for her through that action and told her we would see each other again. A small tear ran down her face. A tear of shared friendship and love just for me ran down her hollowed cheek. It was through God’s will I was able to find that calmness in my own heart and share His love for my friend.
I often hear people question why God allow tragic things to happen to wonderful people. I was one of those people, too. We profess our God to be a loving God, an accepting God, a God that grants us peace and grace. This is the perfect example of putting our own desires into our heart instead of letting God into our heart. Then I became a hospice nurse and my plans became His plans. It was then; I understood God’s grateful motives
I thank God for giving me the wisdom to know His heart so I may be truly grateful in His presence.
Dylan Robinson - November 4, 2018
From Series: "All Messages"
Payree considers herself a bit of a random person who is full of life experiences. She is a retired teacher who helped deliver a baby on her 50th birthday. She loves God, her family, friends, music, writing, and smiling.